Reflections

This is going to be a composition of random thoughts as the school year is rapidly approaching - there will be a couple posts giving culminating summer reflections later (at least that's the hope).

I'm probably going to be deactivating my facebook soon - for various reasons. But before I was going to deactivate it, I wanted to go through pictures and save the ones that I really liked, because y'know, I'm not going to be able to access them whenever I want.

And as I went through the pictures from this past summer, I kinda took a step back and assessed where I am now - spending lots of time alone, pining for home pretty often - and where I was in the beginning of the summer - really, really excited to spend the summer at Berkeley - and I'm wondering to myself, how did I get to where I am?

I mean, obviously, I know - just looking at this blog already kinda gives a glimpse of a picture of what happened this summer. And it was a very gradual change, but at the same time, with school about to start, I suddenly have no idea how to process it all and take solid steps into the school year. I'm scared, and I'm unsure of how to handle it all.

I'm sitting at my dining table, kinda practicing for boot camp, and I'm so excited for FCS and the school year and everything to start again, yet... I have this feeling inside of me that... I'm not ready yet.

But I guess that's the beauty of it all. So long I remember that I have a God who loves me, watches over me, and desires for me to grow closer to Him, how can I fail? The victory is already mine.